The Moment We've Been Waiting For
Hi Everybody!
Thanks for all the support and prayers – things are really moving fast!
Our plane touched down in Erie 5/25 and within minutes I got a call from MD ANDERSON transplant research nurse wondering if I was still in Houston – HA!
So the GOOD NEWS is that they are ready for me to do the transplant ASAP!
After some whiplash and garden therapy yesterday I have my head around the idea and am 100% in. Bekah is amazing. She didn't even bat an eye. She said: "this is what we've been waiting for Mom – I think we should do it"
Yes. It is the moment we've been waiting for.
HERE'S THE SCHEDULE:
June 8: Fly to Houston
June 9: Bone Marrow Biopsy
June 10: A-sundry tests
June 13: Port placement
June 14: A-sundry tests
June 15: Final Doctor Khouri Visit before chemo
June 16: First chemo (out patient)
June 17-22: no appointments (must stay in Houston)
June 22: Final Dr. Khouri visit before admission
June 23: Admission and chemo
June 24 and 25: more chemo
June 29: Receive Amy's cells!! NEW BIRTHDAY!! and begin the 100-day count down till I can come home-- WAIT FOR IT... October 6th. Our anniversaries are on October 7th and 8th and my 52nd birthday is on October 9th:)
Of course this is what we are planning on --but...
Yesterday I was gripped with fear. I know that sounds a little crazy since this is what we've been waiting for – but... I was.
Just resting and letting go of the fear – trusting the Maker of the Universe (and me) to fill me with LOVE.
This morning I am asking for PEACE. I am asking for JOY! I am asking for HOPE!
Even EXCITEMENT and ANTICIPATION like I am going to take a big vacation -- one that I have been looking forward to for a long time (and that I didn't think I was going to get to take)!!
Today I am writing out this scripture for myself and for you. It is a precious reminder...
O, Lord, You have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up
You know my thoughts even when I am far away.
You see me when I travel and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
You know everything I am going to say
Even before I say it Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me!
Too great for me to understand!
I can never escape from Your Spirit!
I can never get away from Your Presence!
If I go up to Heaven; You are there
If I go down to the grave; You are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning,
If I dwell by the farthest oceans
Even there Your hand will guide me,
and Your strength will support me.
I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night--
but even in darkness I cannot hide from You
To You the night shines bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to You.
You made all the delicate inner parts of my body
And knit me together in my mother's womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous! How well I know it!
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
As I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in Your book
Every moment was laid out
Before a single day had passed.
How precious are Your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!
I cannot even count them;
They outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
You are still with me!
Search me, O God and know my heart;
Test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Point out anything in me that offends You,
And lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Lots of LOVE, PEACE, JOY, HOPE!
L
